Welcome to my World!!!
Centuries have passed, the new millenium is here;
But have things changed?
Man wants to be King of his house, get his own way;
Loves to be pampered,
He wishes her to be always at his beck and call;
Clothes ready, food hot,
The woman of his heart should be queen of his home;
Enjoying love and security,
So why does he mistreat her, belittle her, batter her;
Humiliate and scorn her?
She breaks her back being a good mother, ideal wife;
But he can throw her out,
He can bring her back conveniently, for his comfort;
She complies, she suffers,
For love's sake, she perseveres - bears his children,
Ignores his misdemeanours,
An epitome of sacrifice, she must maintain culture;
Home should never break,
Divorce is taboo, she would prefer to die in stead;
Her children are the priority,
They will understand when they are all grown up;
The tribulatons, the trauma,
And respect her for the courage and will power,
To keep peace in their life!
As I lie in shrouds of white, peaceful, quiet, so serene, so calm;
They come weeping, wailing, to shed a few tears of pretence;
With feigned chagrin, false masks, they hide in their hypocrisy;
In under tones, they utter empty, meaning-less condolences;
Have seen it all - honesty being punished, conniving rewarded;
Now that I am free from all jealousies, petty talk and gossip;
Lower me into my final abode with blissful stillness, silence;
I have no regrets leaving this world that suppresses innocents;
Manipulation is the norm, money worshipping is the power;
Slayers of humanity, traders of flesh roaming fearlessly, free;
Call me cynical, backward - I am better off without them all;
Missing only the ones who loved me unconditionally, I can go;
At last to a place of rest - peaceful, quiet, so serene, so calm....
Pompous me, slave to false pride, fake appearances and glitter;
Basking under the warmth of my own ego, selfishness and greed;
Submitting to the abnormal 'norms' of a hypocritical society;
Restless and worried with thoughts of what others will say;
Succumbing to demands of a ruthless lover, whims of a child;
Powerless - bewitched by demonic dreams, my unending needs;
Always giving in to juicy gossip, ill will, anger and aggression;
Why can't I control my petty jealousies, enemity, wickedness;
Why do I slink into sweet sleep, sleazy comfort, complacency;
Can I break the shackles, and be free from the chains of vices;
This claustrophobia, this sheer slavery - will it ever end?
O my ailing heart - let me have some more time;
Don't make the flicker of hope be smothered!
Pretty flowers that swayed with pride and gaiety;
Are now crumbling - exhausted and withering!
But new shoots are waiting to blossom and bloom;
Gruelling phase will ebb, joyous outcome is near!
Vision blurring, strength ebbing - end inevitable;
The day is gone, darkness stealthily approaching!
A few breaths remaining - few heart beats away;
Eyes slowly closing, silent death is creeping over!
Persevere, wait a little, don't abandon me now;
Want to repent, forgive, worship some more!
O my ailing heart - let me have some more time;
Don't make the flicker of hope be smothered!
Shama
20.07.2019 15:50
Thanks everyone for the appreciation. Check out the other pages. Enjoy.
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19.11 | 07:25
You are so kind. Do see other pages on menu. You will enjoy. Bless you. Luvv.
19.11 | 01:25
Sad to know that Ms M Butt is no more. May her soul rest in eternal peace... Ameen ❤️
19.11 | 01:22
You were my favorite biology teacher. I never forgot you😊
22.06 | 09:34
Thanks dear arfa. Check out other pages on the menu. You will enjoy. God bless.